[APOLOGY] my dream (7/4/11)

It was raining that day, the sky looked dark, the rain poured angrily and endlessly.

I stood under my umbrella and walked pass through a dim and curtain less house...

My house.

I looked upon myself and realized I was wearing white.

My hair soaked and my face is wet.

I entered my house and walked to my room.

Following me, HE reached my hands. His face were disoriented.

He was wearing white.

I'm not sure if he was crying, no tears came out his eyes, but the expression of his face showed sorrow, hurt and regret.

He kissed my hands and held it firm and gentle.

He'd spoken.

"I'm willing to let go of everything, I don't care. But I can't bear this any longer."

The way he said the words... its meaning register to my mind in different way.

It was an APOLOGY.

I reclaim my hand, and go.

He followed me everywhere. Anywhere.

I avoided him.I can't bear the sight of him. His scent. His presence.

For he caused the pain I tried to forget and the wounds I tried healed to torment me again.

Its too late. I can't accept him anymore.

It was raining that day, my melancholy matched the pouring rain.