THE PAINFUL TRUTH (7/20/11)

HE approached me.

"Why are you always mad at me?"

Then I thought 'wow!! do I really have to answer that?'

He made me believe that he really does care for me.
He made me believe that I am his only girl.
And above all, he made me believe he did love me more than his life.

I've been his rebound girlfriend without even knowing it.

[Because if I would, I would never let him enter my life]

So how come he had formulated that question upon me?!
When all this time it was all his fault!!!

I have every right to be cold and bitter to him.
To treat him like I didn't know him. To treat him like a worthless peace of jerk!!!

I must say I missed him so much
that it hurts just seeing him.
I still love him so much.

Though he cheated on me
it doesn't change anything.

I STILL LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE.

but..

still no matter how much I love him. It doesn't change the fact that
HE loves Her more than me.

And if you are wondering, did I ever fight for him??

YES. I tried all my strength to fight for him.

But I broke up with him. I know I did the right thing. 

I know how it feels to be dumped, and be rejected by your love over another girl.

And I am sure that SHE is a nice person and she loves him.

That I come to realize that I am just an obstacle sent by the lord to make their relationship stronger.

I cried. I cried so hard that I can't even hear anything around me.

Just feeling the sheer pain struck me.

Sometimes you have to lose. You can't always have a happy ending.

And its the painful truth.